I am an ambitious person by nature. A go-getter. Someone who has big dreams and never stops trying to reach them. I'm constantly moving, multi-tasking, with my mind running a million miles a minute. While some may say this is ideal, it can also be a heavy burden. This means that I always want more, I am always doing and trying new things, and I rarely rest and am satisfied with where I am in life. (Go ahead, it's okay to feel sorry for B.)
Along with this motivation comes the fact that I don't usually know how to "turn it off" and just be. I don't know how to have that elusive work/life balance and sometimes I fear I never will. I work really hard all hours of the day- being a mom, being a wife, being a marketing employee, running this blog, and also, starting up my magazine. When people ask me how I relax, I usually just laugh, because I don't quite know what that means.
But I'm trying. I am trying to learn to shut it all off and be with my family. I'm trying to take time for myself. I'm trying to learn that it's okay if I don't answer emails right away, or if I don't have a blog post up every day of the week.
When I get home from work, Henry usually takes an after daycare nap. I use this time to work on the blog, work on my magazine, or if I'm feeling extra motivated, I do yoga in the basement. And then once he's up, I'm trying my hardest to put the phone down and just be. I don't want to miss one minute of him growing up. I want to enjoy this time as a family of three. Even if this means that I'm then up until 11 doing work once both of my boys are in bed.
Is this a perfect solution? Of course not. But until they somehow invent more hours in the day, or until I'm able to make the blog/magazine my full-time job, I will continue to juggle and continue to struggle trying to find work/life balance.
Here's some other bloggers to check out who might be doing this whole work/life balance thing better than me: