As bloggers, there is nothing more cringe-worthy than to look back at your very first posts. For the majority of us, we had no idea what we were doing when we started out. We had no real direction, our design was horrible, and our content left quite a bit to be desired. Over the weekend I mentioned to B that this summer will mark 4 years that I've been at this blogging thing. And when I said it out loud, I was shocked to hear it. 4 years doing this? How have I kept at it? How have I kept YOU reading? How has my readership actually grown when I still feel like I don't have much to say?
I started blogging because I've always loved to write. And I've always loved fashion. So when I heard of these little things called blogs, I thought I may as well combine my two loves. I didn't think too hard on it. I had even set up a Tumblr account before I started my blog. I had no intentions of anyone ever reading the blog. I just wanted somewhere that I could talk about fashion since at the time I was working in health insurance, which is possibly as far as you can get from the fashion industry. The very first time I hit publish on this new blog called Coming Unstitched, I didn't tell anyone. And then I published my second and third posts, and still, I didn't want to tell anyone- and this includes B and my mom, the two people I tell EVERYTHING to. I was embarrassed and I wasn't sure what they would say. But then eventually, little by little, I let people into my secret. From there, things kind of snowballed.
People started reading what I was saying, and they became interested in what I was wearing. Brands wanted to work with me and I had newbie bloggers emailing me for advice on how to be "successful". I still laugh at that last one. Am I a successful blogger? Only in the sense that I've been doing this for nearly 4 years. I don't make much money off my blog and I definitely won't be quitting my day job anytime soon. But I'm still here and writing, and a few of you are still reading, so I'll call that a success.
So now when I look back to my very first post (don't worry, there's a link at the bottom so you can see just how cringe-worthy it was), I think about how far I've come. Not only as a blogger, but as a person. Being a blogger has helped me learn to communicate, learn to open up, learn that I'm great just the way I am, and has given me a tougher skin (thanks "anonymous" commenters). But it's also given me the license to look at my life through a different lens. I can look back through my posts and see what I've been through, where my life has gone and it renews in me a sense of gratitude at just where I am in my life. I am a happy person and my life is wonderful. And blogging has let me see that.
Now, go ahead, read my very first blog post ever.
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