I'm 33, and will be 34 in March. Young by all accounts but still getting to the point of wanting to have life figured out. I'm wanting to figure out my place in this world, how I can leave it better than I found it. I'm wanting to figure out those things that will make my life feel fulfilled, that will leave me on my deathbed smiling and thinking "life has been great".
If I died tomorrow, I will have known some of the greatest pleasures there are - the support of great friends, the bond of family, the love of a good man, and the indescribable feeling of your own child's arms around your neck.
There is still so much I want out of this life. I want to forge my own path and travel the world and explore other cultures. I want to create something people love and allow that passion to travel with me around the world- working in coffee shops and sidewalk cafes on a street in Italy or Paris or Ireland. I want to show my son the world, let him meet people who are different from him, and fall in love with what our world has to offer.
I don't know where to start. How does one live the life they've always dreamed of? How do you put all your reservations to the side, and just go for it? How do you shake the feeling of wanting to be safe in your community, with wanting to be a world explorer, someone who follows every dream she has?
I'm scared to do it. I'm scared to not do it.